naanima | (no subject)

I get angry way too easily at the things that shouldn't matter. It gets to the point where I wish I wouldn't care, except that defeat the point. Doesn't it? If I didn't get angry, or passionate, or whatever doesn't it mean I don't care anymore? Isn't it better to react, to show that I do care?... Even if it is expressed through anger.

I don't know how to be a person that can be good in a relationship. I just don't. I think Drew is pissed with me, I think I'm pissed with Drew, and all I want to do is maybe... I don't know, have him on my side. Back up whatever I'm saying, except that would be stupid because he obviously think my point is stupid.

It is stupid. My plans are always stupid. Just shut up at the JAFWA meeting and AGM, present your report, get through the year, then give it to someone else. It doesn't matter, just let it go. It doesn't matter, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go.

Skip gaming this Sunday, do work, just don't say anything at the meeting. Just don't. Stick to the plan, don't rock the boat, and just let that part go, it isn't fucking important. NOT FUCKING IMPORTANT!!!! So what if Drew doesn't believe you, it isn't the first time, just let it fucking die.