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I need to do a run-sheet. They are interesting, and very exact. I think I like them.
There's a list of things that can go wrong in the next two weeks, one of which is me failing accounting, the other is a direct result from failing. If I fail by 5% I'll need to take a supplementary exam which is held during the last week of July, i.e., the week when the seminar, the one we have been planning for the whole semester is going to happen. If this is the case then I'll need to drop out of the internship to concentrate on passing the unit. All of this leads to big sucks (a semester's worth of planning down the drain).
Beyond that, low self-esteem has hit. I'm 23 this year, I don't have a job, I don't drive, and I kind of really suck. And what makes it worse is that at the present I don't even have the motivation to learn to drive, or get a job. All I want to do is re-play FF7 and sleep.
I'll probably feel better tomorrow, but I'm seriously questioning on what the fuck I'm doing, and shouldn't I be out there doing something... I don't know, getting a full time job or something. Even if I'll be working at a low wage. It would stop me from feeling guilty every time dad buys me something. Fuck.
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There's a list of things that can go wrong in the next two weeks, one of which is me failing accounting, the other is a direct result from failing. If I fail by 5% I'll need to take a supplementary exam which is held during the last week of July, i.e., the week when the seminar, the one we have been planning for the whole semester is going to happen. If this is the case then I'll need to drop out of the internship to concentrate on passing the unit. All of this leads to big sucks (a semester's worth of planning down the drain).
Beyond that, low self-esteem has hit. I'm 23 this year, I don't have a job, I don't drive, and I kind of really suck. And what makes it worse is that at the present I don't even have the motivation to learn to drive, or get a job. All I want to do is re-play FF7 and sleep.
I'll probably feel better tomorrow, but I'm seriously questioning on what the fuck I'm doing, and shouldn't I be out there doing something... I don't know, getting a full time job or something. Even if I'll be working at a low wage. It would stop me from feeling guilty every time dad buys me something. Fuck.
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