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I need to do a run-sheet. They are interesting, and very exact. I think I like them.
There's a list of things that can go wrong in the next two weeks, one of which is me failing accounting, the other is a direct result from failing. If I fail by 5% I'll need to take a supplementary exam which is held during the last week of July, i.e., the week when the seminar, the one we have been planning for the whole semester is going to happen. If this is the case then I'll need to drop out of the internship to concentrate on passing the unit. All of this leads to big sucks (a semester's worth of planning down the drain).
Beyond that, low self-esteem has hit. I'm 23 this year, I don't have a job, I don't drive, and I kind of really suck. And what makes it worse is that at the present I don't even have the motivation to learn to drive, or get a job. All I want to do is re-play FF7 and sleep.
I'll probably feel better tomorrow, but I'm seriously questioning on what the fuck I'm doing, and shouldn't I be out there doing something... I don't know, getting a full time job or something. Even if I'll be working at a low wage. It would stop me from feeling guilty every time dad buys me something. Fuck.
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There's a list of things that can go wrong in the next two weeks, one of which is me failing accounting, the other is a direct result from failing. If I fail by 5% I'll need to take a supplementary exam which is held during the last week of July, i.e., the week when the seminar, the one we have been planning for the whole semester is going to happen. If this is the case then I'll need to drop out of the internship to concentrate on passing the unit. All of this leads to big sucks (a semester's worth of planning down the drain).
Beyond that, low self-esteem has hit. I'm 23 this year, I don't have a job, I don't drive, and I kind of really suck. And what makes it worse is that at the present I don't even have the motivation to learn to drive, or get a job. All I want to do is re-play FF7 and sleep.
I'll probably feel better tomorrow, but I'm seriously questioning on what the fuck I'm doing, and shouldn't I be out there doing something... I don't know, getting a full time job or something. Even if I'll be working at a low wage. It would stop me from feeling guilty every time dad buys me something. Fuck.
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How about this? It's end of semester; you have 2-3 weeks free. If you don't at the very LEAST start regular driving lessons I will personally come up to your house and kick your arse, or if I can't do that, I'll call you up everyday and keep annoying you until you start driving lessons.
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Techinically I have 2-3 weeks of holiday, at the moment I'm looking at 4 days of holiday all together. Need to organise speakers breakfast for next week (full of industry people, must make good impression!) Write the speakers package, start on the run-sheets (over 30 people/positions, 5 seminars and five workshops on a daily bais for five straight days of manic hell.) Organise transportation for guest speakers that are only staying for the a day/night. Thank the gods I'm not handling the catering (the wine list alone would confuse me to hell). Do more promotional stuff (speak to different Rotary clubs), organise the goodies pack (WTF are you suppose to put in goodies pack for people who gets paid over half a million a year?!) Get down to Fairbridge (next week, after the breakfast) to get map, time walking distance between venues. Return to Perth, speak to more speakers (BEG for the them to come), ORGANISE the workshops that are in no way, shape or form organised *cries* Bite nails, run around like a headless chicken attempting to iron out the problems, and then ONE week of camp (6 am to 12am for a week, I can handle it yes I can!) Return to Perth, do JAFWA crap, and then UNIVERSITY begins.
So, uh, yes, no free time this holiday.