Have installed Firefox (finally) on my computer, and can't stop looking at my wallpaper. It is John and Aeryn, and it is so hot it burns – I miss Farscape.

John and Aeryn

I have been suffering from insomnia; I am consistently tired, and my concentration is starting to suffer. Counting sheep and alcohol not working, will try exercise tomorrow night if insomnia persist.

I am beyond stressed, yet still beneath the zen level of the brain dead, this is bad because I really need the fucking zen.

Things that really did not need to go wrong has exploded in my face in its sheer bad timing, this sucks, this sucks so much. Contemplating some headdesk actions till I'm unconscious.

So, after nearly 30+ hours of sleep since Tuesday night I’m feeling like a whole new person (the prescribed drugs are helping like wow). Back on the job with enthusiasm and joy, and contemplating the need for a hair-cut (you know you need a hair-cut when you wake up in the middle of the night choking on your own hair, STFU, it was kind of traumatising.)

I will have broadband in two weeks time (they must mail us the ADSL +2 modem), do you know what this means? This means I will be able to download season 2 episode 6 and onwards of Supernatural! I will be able to see Sam, Dean and the Impala once more; this makes me deliriously happy, happy enough to giggle like a nutcase on drugs. The timing is more than perfect, because if everything works out the break for Supernatural would have ended by the time I get broadband, oh joyous occasion.

Now I go and work.

Good hair-day today.

Will score stupidly high to pass this unit.

I am very sleepy and have been completely swamped by work. Can't actually remember what I'm supposed to be focused on at any given point.

Is currently taking a break from Suikoden V because the actual game-play aspect of it is driving me insane (need something a bit more dynamic). Also, no matter how much Fran and Balfear's arse are the many kinds of mesmerising, I just can't deal with where I’m currently at in FF12. You can only scream in frustration for so many times as you go from one really bad fight straight into a major boss fight with no time to heal and prepare. This is also kind of irritating because I’m really close to finishing the game (possibly another 3-4 hours or so).

So, after taking a 3 year break from KH 1 I think I’m ready to finish the game (I was about 3 hours from finishing the game back then, and for some reason I just lost steam.) Also, I got my arse handed to me by the Platinum Champion in under 5 seconds; this makes me hmm in a rather zen-like manner.

In the past week or so I have written over 40,000+ words in relation to work and university, this is making me want to write a novel about the reaching nirvana through reincarnation in the pure traditional Buddhism sense.

+ One screaming/crying baby will multiply to many screaming/crying babies
+ Wishing that the babies’ heads would explode is a bad thing to wish for.
+ I now own Season 1, 2 & 3 of Spooks
+ German people are really that tall.
+ Orgasms is good.
+ No orgasms is bad.
+ In line with the above, I have realised that I want to talk about sex, in details, except sanity kicked in before I could type up my epic entry about sex (the good, the bad, and the truly stupid), because the whole thing would have been TMI.
+ I do still want to write about sex, except I’ll have to look my RL friends in the face at a later date.
+ I may possibly make a special filter. Hmm.

Sleeping really does make a difference. I have been going to bed early (9PM) and waking up early (6:00AM) rather than going to bed at 12AM and waking up at 6:00AM. The world is suddenly brighter, I’m more focused, and my productivity level has shot through the roof. It feels as if I can conquer the world (at least conquer the three assessment, none-paid work, and hopefully paid-work) in the next few weeks. Yay!

The only downside I can see of this is the people I’m in charge of getting ticked off with me. I’m suddenly in the ‘PUSH! CHARGE! GO! Mode’, on the other hand they have been rather slack in the past few days. So, nyah!

Still alive.

I really dislike hormones. Hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, and stabbity stab.

Many things have happened in the past week or so, but the only thing that really stands out (fandom wise) is having lunch with perseid. During the extensive lunch we talked about fiction, feminist texts, television, Japanese variety shows (there was, at the least, a 20 mins conversation about The Amazing Dork that is Gackt), plagiarism in fandom, and the joy of crossover fanfiction. Which actually means me telling perseid about the Naruto-Stargate crossover fanfiction that I want to read but cannot find anywhere, yet! There was some initial, mm, reservation about the idea, but I managed to persuade her with my wonderful plot! It –would- work, honest.

On the RL front; have a presentation in the morning and a 3-hour lab test immediately after, of which I haven’t studied much for. Two hours of studying is not enough, but as it is, it is time to bite the bullet and hope I can figure out what I need to do in three hours *crosses fingers and touch wood*.

Note to self: becoming a vegeterian is much more attractive when it can lead to weight loss. Consider later.

Note to self 2: plucking takes too long, buy foam, wax is scary, and the fact that I trip over my own feet does not inspire the use of a razor... and laser is too expensive.

Note to self 3: Mail DVDs out. i_smile, it is coming!

ETA: What do everyone else use? I think I have asked about this before but I can't find it anywhere, and this time I want SPECIFICS! Gel? Razor? Foam? Wax? NEED INFORMATION!

( 10 things that have happened in the past few days (barring academic woe; )

I have been a very busy chipmunk... now, if only I can achieve such success on the academic side of things. As I was typing the list I came to the realisation that the above is a summary of most of my weeks this year, I so need a break, and booze, much booze.

I -am- thinking very carefully about November Rain, the thing is I keep on picturing him looking like Zangetsu ala-Ichigo's anthropomorphic sword. He's cool looking and fits the whole November Rain feel but he's completely wrong in relation to Araki's style. Unless Araki made a major revision of his style (again) between part 4 to part 6. In addition, googling for Guns n' Roses albums, and other bands (METALLICA), obsessively for inspiration. As baka_neko suggested, if I was a fictional stand-user I'll NOT have a drop of Italian blood in my veins. Tragedies make me sad.

Things that need to be invented ASAP.

Direct IV-drip of stimulant that allows the human brain to concentrate for more than 45 mins stretch.

A dimension of nothingness except for TEXT BOOKS and PENS. Distractions are bad!

A World Government System that PROVIDE FREE education where your life is not dictated by money. Failing that, the first Matrix, where it was the UTOPIAN dream will do.

Little head phones that send electric shocks to one's brain everytime one needs to rest or loses focus.

Oh gods, I need to focus.

In the mean time; I made new layout for my journal, and have painstaking coloured one picture of Joseph and Caesar and is in the process of making it into a nice wallpaper. Oh dear lords I need those inventions ASAP.
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I think my hormones are trying to kill me.

On the upside; talked to perseid, saw the boydfriend (dearly needed), and have hard copies of Barrayar and Memory in hand.

However.

Attempting to get into honours for Accounting or Finance is killing me.

Fandom continues to fly by (except the whole Saiyuki thing) while I attempt to type up four pages of auditing tutorial-answers (I had forgotten how single space operate in a piece of academic work.)
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RL eats babies.

Lj continues to mock me by showing me error messages 93.13% of the time (I counted.)

There's about 50kb worth of fandom-ish essays on my hard drive that will never see the lights of day because I'm too lazy to finish writing them, or give them the much needed overhaul.

I need more crack in my fandom.

pugnacious: combative; quarrelsome. Kind of describe my mood.

1. Need to work a bit more on the speech.
2. Attempt to write essay-thing about Buddhism and Reincarnation.
3. Do actual work (don't wanna.)
4. Drink more beer (can't drink at work.)
5. Email amei the plot-line thing (left it at home.)
6. Talk about the legal/political world building aspect of Naruto - in relation to point 2.
7. List of yaoi pron that I would like more of.
8. Get new fandom.

Bone weary, interaction with humans has reached its limit.

Brain is also dead. I don't think even hot Man!Smex can make me happy or wake me up at the moment. Coffee has once again lost it is God-like ability; I am saddened by this.

Twenty-nine inquisitive interns should not be this deadly to one's brain facilities.

Mmm.

RL: Have been sick, throwing up and what not, still kind of sick.

Fandom: Finished watching Honey and Clover… adjshgkhkngla! Can’t express clearly what I want to say, just can’t, so not even going to try. anarch_kitty, I don’t know if I want to cry or laugh, need the last two episodes like right now.

…Ok, I lied about the not talking about the series.

YUUTA! MORITA! OMFG! YAMADA! MAYAMA! NOMIYA!(Why the hell did you have to become important?!) And Shuu-chan and his THIRD OPTION! Why do I think he’s talking about himself?! *sobs* Oh Harada and Rika, were the two of you that BLIND?! *indecisive about whether to hit something or cry*

WAHHHHHHHHH!

Moving on, KKM episode 56… anarch_kitty, you are evil, hate cliff-hangers. I think we are finally moving into the main plot, I’m kind of scared for the three brothers. Despite my fanatic ConradxYuri fangirl thoughts I do like Wolfram, and the thoughts of bad things happening to him or Gwendal, or gods-forbid-Conrad makes me all wobble-like. I’m not even going to think about the bad things that are going to happen to Yuri. The Shinou seem to be one of those people who firmly believe that you need to hurt the ones you love in order for them to grow. While I’m inclined towards that school of thought I still wobble at the idea of the boys getting hurt *WOBBLE*

Blade of the Immortal: Hurts.

Only the Japanese can somehow manage to equate sex with a man being better than the warmth of a teddy-bear or the warmth of a mother.

I ♥ Nanao Bohra.

Attention to anarch_kitty and perseid, remember how awhile ago we were despairing at the lack of organisation when it comes to our collection of yaoi manga? Well, fear no more, I have organised the Yaoi folder by Author. There are altogether seventy-one folders (no, you really don't want to know how long it took me, and no I did not do all of it in the past few days) including one miscellaneous folder (containing 6 items), where I can't find the mangaka's name anywhere. So, when you guys do finally manage to get your hands on my Super!Organised files; please help by placing the 'Miscellaneous' items in the right folders (if you recognise them). I'm pretty sure there are mistakes so, um, check and correct. In addition, add MORE files to the folders because I'm MISSING chapters! You know how I lack downloading power *pouts*

Now I go and study for today's exam; wish me luck.

Alive, despite the best efforts of Finance and Accounting attempting otherwise. Caffeine and chocolate has become my best friends, and I'll love them forever if they can get me though the next 11 days or so.

ETA: Bleach 201 & 202 makes me sooooooo happy. As far as I'm concerned, after seeing the kanji, it is Snow White Sleeve, and I'm not changing my mind till Kuto Tite tells me differently. Yes, I am studying, merely taking a break.

i_smile, write me some Orochimaru & Kabuto fic.

Please.

nekomancy, did you phone me yesterday evening or did I dream it?

When I get my 3 weeks of break I'm going to get reacquainted with fandom and maybe some series that I can sink my teeth into. The only thing I have the urge to watch at the moment is Honey and Clover, and I haven't being following any manga since Bleach 195.

But back to the Orochimaru thing; worldserpent, was it you who described Orochimaru as an aging-JRocker? 'Cos you know, I still think that's the best description for him, ever.

Saw Batman Begins, my reaction: meh. Not bad, but nothing to scream about, so, um, yeah, meh.

*goes back to assignments and stuff*

Life is good (hectic, insane and at times down right frustrating... but good.)

Anime/manga fandom: Quite lean.

Stargate: Atlantis is good, which is making me confused. The series is a combination of cheese and some truly dark and ambitious moments, and it is the dark and ambitious moments that are making me a fan of the show. perseid, I rec the show.

P.S. Rodney McKay is awesome.