I have somehow, managed to make my pulled stomach muscle worse over the span of the evening. Presently I can't stand up straight or lay down straight on the bed because OUCH! Pain to me! Walking is OK as long as I hunch my back but that hurts my back after awhile. So, I'm stuck home for the day, which is not a bad thing in itself but there had been plans >___<.

To make my morning more unbearable my dad took the kettle with him today so now I can't make coffee... well, I'm currently boiling water on the stove so, um, yeah!(?)

Also, I may or may not be looking for David Cook of American Idol fanfiction. (LOOK, it isn’t my fault, someone had the youtube links up and I’m a compulsive clicker of links, and the next thing I know I’m mainlining his performances, and he went from his OMFG!A DOUGH!baby in Action to a OMFG!YOU ARE SO VERY HOT MAN! And I may LOVE you because you are also KIND of AWESOME! And JUST! I DON’T KNOW OK?!)

When your 50-yr-old dad writes you an email that includes the appropriate use of LOL you can feel nothing but pwned.

Getting back into exercising after a two months break. It is an absolute murder. I can’t jog for more than 5mins stretch and my pink 1lbs weight hurts me, 1lbs, it is so pathetic. It is going to take me forever to feel healthy again and I don’t even want to think about the weight I have gained since I stopped exercising.

Also, just because. My current desktop wallpaper.




Presently it is my happy place.

Women fall into 'trance' during orgasm

Ah, science, how I love you and your science ways.

The scans show that during sexual activity, the parts of the female brain responsible for processing fear, anxiety and emotion start to relax and reduce in activity. This reaches a peak at orgasm, when the female brain’s emotion centres are effectively closed down to produce an almost trance-like state.

Do keep up the good work.

This is why I shouldn’t read things that would piss me off.

One of the things I learned when I was studying psychology (4 years man, 4 years, so yes I do know what I’m talking about) was the utter contempt for the over-prescription of legal drugs. That is, professional pill pushers have my scorn (doctors and other health professionals who have made contracts with major pharmaceutical companies and gain commissions based on the amount they fucking sell hence, ‘pill pushers’). However, my major hate (yes, I say hate) is the over prescription of Methylphenidate, it is usually branded by the commercial name of Ritalin.

Methylphenidate is a stimulant that targets the central nervous system. It keeps people calm and allows them to focus (focus my fucking arse). It is mostly used on children suffering from ADHD, when I say children I’m talking about kids between the age of 6-14, fucking 6 to 14-yr-olds. This is beyond stupidity, first off; all symptoms of ADHD described in the DSM-IV are BEHVIOURAL problems, at no point does it state the illness as a fucking bio-chemical or physical. So why the fuck is health professionals prescribing a CHEMICAL altering drug to target a behavioral problem? Why are parents accepting this? Because the world is populated by greedy-soul-sucking dickheads and people who should’ve never been allowed to reproduce.

Children are loud, they move when they are bored, intelligent children will become disruptive in class if they are not being stimulated, children will throw tantrums because they are not happy, they will get angry when something doesn’t go their way. Yes, this can all be very irritating for parents and teachers, but this does NOT give them the fucking right to dope children into submission, to make them into the equivalent of fucking robots. You provide disciplinary actions, you act like a parent and not a fucking stranger who can’t be bothered to go to the effort of caring.

Any drug used in the field of psychology and psychiatry produces bio-chemical disruptions in the normal functioning of the brain. Yes, even the drugs prescribed to people who suffers from manic depression and schizophrenia (while drugs are needed for schizophrenia, as it is an issue of bio-chemistry, the side effects for such drugs are damn horrifying. There’s always a trade-off.) There are millions of children out there doped up to the gills because their fucking parents can’t deal with the reality of children. These children’s brain functions are effectively being disrupted by the use of Ritalin. They are fucking up their children so they don’t have to deal with the reality of children.

I have no problems with the prescription of the drug itself to people who do need it, i.e. people who has suffered from brain trauma. However, to let it be prescribed to parents who can’t handle their hyperactive children makes me go into a blind rage

Note to self: becoming a vegeterian is much more attractive when it can lead to weight loss. Consider later.

Note to self 2: plucking takes too long, buy foam, wax is scary, and the fact that I trip over my own feet does not inspire the use of a razor... and laser is too expensive.

Note to self 3: Mail DVDs out. i_smile, it is coming!

ETA: What do everyone else use? I think I have asked about this before but I can't find it anywhere, and this time I want SPECIFICS! Gel? Razor? Foam? Wax? NEED INFORMATION!

( TMI about my bodily functions. Or how they are not functioning right. )

Accounting is being, hmm, not exactly easy but manageable, this is causing me a slight bout of stress because accounting is never manageable. It is the unit that causes me massive panic attacks, over eating and crying at 3am in the morning while telling dad that I'm sorry for wasting his money as I'm obviously going to fail the unit he paid for.

So, um, neurotic as usual, and the craving for meat and beer is becoming uncontrollable.

I am, apparently, suffering from a major hormonal upheaval.

It is very hard to curb the urge to scream at the top of my lungs and throw my semi-nice phone across the room in a fit of incoherent and unexplainable rage.

P0rn does not seem to be helping in lessening the pain/anguish.

ETA 1: I'm in pain.

ETA 2: 'Atlantis' mpreg-fanfiction seems to help. If I must suffer in preparation for my uterus-linings to shred itself on a monthly basis, then men should suffer the pain of childbirth, at least in fiction. It is fair, and no I really don't care if you disagree with me.

ETA 3: I can see why women can get away with murder during this time.

ETA 4: When I have kids I'm naming them Nadir and Zenith. Evil? Yes.

I just wanted to know what it is.

Mooncup

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So, I hear episdoe 25 of FMA is out. I also hear that this is the -episode-. I think I'm going to lock myself in a little room and avoid it until I finish my accounting and law mid-terms.

Otherwise, I'm down with a cold, I have a mid-term on Saturday, which I haven't studied for, and the stress has kicked in. I think I'm just going to go and scream into my pillow.

I think my head is about to explode with pain. Feeling very frazzled and extremely stressed. I've moved onto the quick breathing, and my stomach has moved onto the ulcer-like pain.

I really need panadol.

Hormones, pain, and my body rejecting my fucking uterus.

Yeah for me.

Alive. Have been sick with the flu for the past few days, still trying to get over the last of it. Being in a perpetual phase of blur-ness and sleepiness. Will sleep more, drink more water, and sleep some more. Will eventually feel all human again.

COFFEE + ICE CREAM + STRESS = Throwing up in the toilet 20 minutes before your exam.

Not a pleasant feeling.

Beside that, exam went ok. Could have done better, but head was too fuzzy. Yes, bad, fuzzy brain. Didn't do great, but I'm sure I passed. That's two units I'm sure I passed. Yeah ^^

I'm now studying for Abnormal. Yes, I am studying. Although I would like to say I HATE the DISM-IV. It's evil, and I can't remember most of it.

The good thing about being so tired that you can't even focus properly, is that you don't have enough energy to be stressed about an exam that you are likely to fail, and therefore, the unit.

Goodbye Macro.

Two essays in four hours... not bad.

Have so much things to say. So much. I always get creative when I'm busy. Need to do stuff. So much stuff. Currently debating whether notes will help me or not. I mean sticking with my highlighted books isn't a bad idea. Unfortunate that I didn't colour code them. Yes, quite.

My sleeping pattern is getting to me. I'll be lucky if I'm still awake by 10:30pm. Mind you, I wake up at 5:30am, so I suppose it does even out. Sort of.

Now I need to meet up with group members and read through 21 essays. That's a lots... way too much.

To ALL The people who are in their 20's and beyond. From Developmental Psychology studies:

The Biological CLock

Around age 20; slow, continuous changes affect workings of the body.
+ Visual acuity, hearing begin to decline in the 20's.
+ Muscle tone, and strength peak in the 20's, and decline after 30's.
+ Volume of blood pumped by the heart, and the amount of air drawn into the lungs, decrease about 1% per annum from mid 20's.

Yeah, all the great things that's already happening to me, and will continue to happen to me. Isn't this fun (all sarcasm meant).

You know how there are days when you feel like you are about to collapse. And you don't think you can get back up again 'cos the migraine you thought was gone is back full force, and your spine want to rip itself out from your back, and you can't string two bloody sentence together to even attempt at coherency if you life depended upon it.

Yeah, it is one of those days. I feel like someone have ripped my eyeballs out (the dry, sand-paper feeling, and the blurring of my left eye is getting worse).

And the essay is not getting written.

Now I'm going to bed.

You'd think after the essay that I'd get a bit of a break, but no, my body's immune system just had to decide to crash in a really big way. Now, I'm feeling sleep deprived, and hurting.

Oh well, on other news... uhh, I've been sleeping?

Anyways, I'm off to get some more sleep.

Something I forgot to mention before.

I had McDonald's today.

A double quarter pounder to be exact.

I could feel the oil and fat sink into my cells.

It was beautiful, it was wonderful, it was heaven on earth.

I feel an urge to make a Haiku in honour of my double quarter pounder.

As you can tell I've not had McDonald's for a very long time.

Still feeling sick. Upset stomach, headaches, and backaches. Fucking backaches. Anyways, watched quite a bit of Asian concerts from the early nighties, and god damn, I bet some of the Asian stars would love utterly destroying all those tapes. Urk, the fashion sense is absolutely dreadful. Truly awlful. And lets not even touch on the hair *shudders*

Anyways, look ma, I finally got myself an icon ^__^ Yes, that is me, and lookie, I ended up with a purple eye (it wasn't even done on purpose). I do sort of look evil, don't I? I'm so proud ^__^ Also, it isn't 'bad' on the bottom line, it's 'had'.

It has only taken me a month or so to get the list done (sorry, persied) ^^;;; but I've finally got it done and that's the important thing ^__^ Realise that this was done during a period of a month so, some of them will sound rather nice and poetic while other sound like they've been put together with very little thought.

( Anyways, I present my top 10 fav anime/manga male characters: )

perseid you have no idea how many people I had to cut out because when it came down to it I didn't actually like them as much as I thought I did. And I'm still not 100% happy with it bceause, well, I'm still iffy about a few of the characters. I need to sleep on it, so, don't be surprised if I do take out a few of the characters and add a few new ones as replacements.