I have not watched the new episode of Supernatural; I literally cannot bring myself to watch this episode. For the past few weeks I have thought I was becoming emotionally distant with SPN, that it was one of those shows I can detach myself from. This isn't because the series has gone bad, in fact I really enjoy the direction this show has taken, but it felt like I was happy to move onto other series, other fandoms because I was done with show, that whatever I needed from the show has finally being fulfilled.

Yeah, um, well, guess not. I'm still heavily invested in Sam and Dean, as brothers and as individuals, and I just can't bring myself to watch this episode knowing how it is going to end (spoilers). I'm weary, I don't want, hell, I don't like seeing how Sam and Dean gets hurt or hurt each other, and obviously I'm not over the show, it feels like the end of All Hell Breaks Loose (part 1) all over again. The thought of what may happen in the next 2 episodes depress me. I have this sneaky suspicion the only way I’m going to be able to watch the last 3 episodes is in one viewing and most likely with the aid of a copious amount of booze.

In conclusion; I need much distraction until I have the next 2 episodes so that I may watch the last 3 episodes in a row. This is going to be emotionally draining.