In the past year or so I lost just over 30 kilos. That's like, uhh, a lots of butter. I'm proud of the effort, and for the first time in awhile now I'm happy with the way I look. So, it's sort of a setback when parents friends' children ask why I'm fat. Que in awkward silence from the parents, the friends and from me.
No, I couldn't kill the fucking kids. They are like 6.
Now I'm sitting in the computer room confronting all my fucking self image issues, just because two fucking kids asked an innocent question. I know I have self esteem problems, and most of the time I can pretty much ignore them, but fuck, there's nothing like the innocent asking pointed questions.
So, contemplating annihilating media enforced images of the Female Beauty (Anorexia is Beauty), and crushing Chinese culture of let's all be 'Frail and graceful'. Fuck you culture, fuck you media, fuck all the people who give both enough credit to brainwash 6-yr-olds.
I really should stop analysing my self worth when I'm hyped up on painkillers. Stopping now. I'm one with the painkillers.
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30kilos...
I need to lose half that...
Its hard.
You really are my hero.
Thanks for the compliements. To be fair I had shakes to sub for meals. So, really it was sort of cheating.
stuff what other ppl say.
you've made the effort, should be proud of that.
and heh. go painkillers. w00t ^^
And yeah for painkillers. They are my friends ^___^
*hugs*
And exactly, fuck the media. Not like I watch tv anyways.
If it's any consolation, the kids' parents were probably mortified as well. It's very hard to say, "Oh, honey! That's a rude thing to say!" without implying that you agree that someone is overweight.
Now, for revenge against the little brats... Tell 'em that you're biologically predisposed to carry a little more weight than some other people (but less than others), and go on a long digression about metabolism and genetics and nutrition until their little eyes glaze over and they regret asking?
It works for my kid -- she doesn't go through the "why" stage at all, so far, because it only takes one "why" for us to go on at length about the answer.
(And, if you haven't yet, get tested for hypothyroidism. Because it is Sheer Hell to try to get weight off if your body is pretty well programmed not to touch the reserves, but instead make you dizzy and faint until you eat something. Believe me. And few doctors test that routinely on blood tests, for some stupid reason.)
Rather, it's a pity, don't you think, that 6 year olds can get sucked into the vortex of the mass media?
And thank you *huggles*
I think that's what got to me than anyhting else, that they were 6, and look society has already brain-washed them *sigh*