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  • Feb. 12th, 2004 at 1:37 PM
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"Don't worry. I don't have low self-esteem. It's a mistake. I have low esteem for everyone else." -Daria

In the past year or so I lost just over 30 kilos. That's like, uhh, a lots of butter. I'm proud of the effort, and for the first time in awhile now I'm happy with the way I look. So, it's sort of a setback when parents friends' children ask why I'm fat. Que in awkward silence from the parents, the friends and from me.

No, I couldn't kill the fucking kids. They are like 6.

Now I'm sitting in the computer room confronting all my fucking self image issues, just because two fucking kids asked an innocent question. I know I have self esteem problems, and most of the time I can pretty much ignore them, but fuck, there's nothing like the innocent asking pointed questions.

So, contemplating annihilating media enforced images of the Female Beauty (Anorexia is Beauty), and crushing Chinese culture of let's all be 'Frail and graceful'. Fuck you culture, fuck you media, fuck all the people who give both enough credit to brainwash 6-yr-olds.

I really should stop analysing my self worth when I'm hyped up on painkillers. Stopping now. I'm one with the painkillers.

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archangelbeth: An egyptian-inspired eye, centered between feathered wings. (Default)
[personal profile] archangelbeth wrote:
Feb. 12th, 2004 10:32 am (UTC)
*offer of hugs* I've gotten about 20 pounds off in... two years? Probably around that. (Darn hypothyroid condition, had me gaining weight while breastfeeding, which is supposed to strip weight off, right?) So go you! O:>

If it's any consolation, the kids' parents were probably mortified as well. It's very hard to say, "Oh, honey! That's a rude thing to say!" without implying that you agree that someone is overweight.

Now, for revenge against the little brats... Tell 'em that you're biologically predisposed to carry a little more weight than some other people (but less than others), and go on a long digression about metabolism and genetics and nutrition until their little eyes glaze over and they regret asking?

It works for my kid -- she doesn't go through the "why" stage at all, so far, because it only takes one "why" for us to go on at length about the answer.

(And, if you haven't yet, get tested for hypothyroidism. Because it is Sheer Hell to try to get weight off if your body is pretty well programmed not to touch the reserves, but instead make you dizzy and faint until you eat something. Believe me. And few doctors test that routinely on blood tests, for some stupid reason.)
[identity profile] naanima.livejournal.com wrote:
Feb. 13th, 2004 12:59 am (UTC)
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Thanks. And your post is also educational. Bonus ^_^

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